THE PRESSURE IS ON.

I am afraid of you changing. When things get too comfortable, it is much easier to take things for granted.

I seek your embrace oh Lord, for I am too frail. I seek your perfect love that casts out all my fears. You alone can satisfy. Take me Lord.

I have now proven my theory, base on what happened with me last year.

"When a blogger starts getting in a relationship, the blogs get fewer."

I have observed this with some of my friends that blog, and it was just a theory until I started being with Mihbf. Man, my blogs were taken for granted since then. Haha

Therefore, I want to make a resolution, that this year, I will find time for my blogs.

Haha. :P

Happy New Year!

I feel like hibernating. Then change my skin. So I can have new skin. Today is a sad day. The idea of being shun out is ginormous for me. I can't swallow it. I need to process it, and take some time. I never felt more threatened than today. I am scared now. Coz normally it starts like this. Like something is brewing. I can smell it even from afar.

Your love oh Lord is like no one else's. I can surrender to you and just throw myself in your arms... Say how fallen I am, and your love makes all things new.

Familiarity breeds contempt. This, I can say, is really true. I pray I wouldn't be too much familiar that I start to change.

I want to be heard. I mean how can you explain yourself when people don't give a damn to what you think? Screw you people.

Sometimes I wonder if my love is a love that kills and destroys. I hope my love is a love that gives life, breathes life. Causing someone's bitterness is not even in the picture.

I'll keep looking at my promise ring and would keep believing that your love will be powerful to overcome moments like these. I will keep on looking at the God that brought us together, and His grace that will see us through. I'll wait for you, until there is no breath left in me.