It's been a week since you finally said "I don't love you anymore!" Woot! Haven't had any drama with my life since. It's interesting how it is March 31 when you said that. I don't know just coz we started March 1 and then you ended it on a March 31. Haha I'm blabbering now.

1. Enjoy every single minute; moment.
2. Togetherness is pure bliss; and distance is hell.
3. I am seeing how FB is becoming evil. At least how it has made my imaginations wild, and my emotions go out of control
4. How can I live without you?

I will be practicing what it is like to TRUST with all my heart. I just pray that the Lord will fill our hearts with peace and bring us closer and closer to His will.

Haha, now that I think of it, such a bummer. I have been waiting for a year for Vday to come so I can celebrate it with mihbf, but he wasn't "mi" anymore before Vday, so no nothing. Blah blah. :p Sigh... Will wait for my Valentines celebration someday, somewhere over the rainbow....

You are the harshest person alive. Or at least the harshest to me.

They said the only way to let go and move on is to throw away everything that can remind you of the person. My gosh, everything that surrounds me reminds me of him. I think I'd prefer to linger on and enjoy the memories...
or enjoy to hurt as I recover the beautiful love.

I beg you, I beg you, I beg you, I beg you...
please back-off :(

Jana, stop offering help okay?

Despite my attempts to be strong, today I would admit I miss him so much.
I miss talking to him, I miss looking at his face, I miss hugging him, and being hugged back. I miss the laughter, the stories, the togetherness.

I could almost pull all my hair in so much frustration.
I miss the love. :-(

Today, I received the final blow.
I lost all the words, I am in shock.


I need to withdraw.
I need to find rest in God.


He is cutting right through my heart.
Like the song goes:
What can I say? and what can I do?
But to offer this heart oh God,
completely to YOU!